inside i'm dancing

the little boy's nodding by my screen again. sense of deja vu. mixed with sadness and a feeling of _________.

on an earlier note. you are a bastard. a cold unfeeling bastard. i don't know if you know how you sound. or you intend to do so. but it still hurts. after all this damn time. and i'm angry. angry cos of the way things turned out. angry cos of how a small part of me still stung from that. and you'll prob never know i feel this way. cos you don't even read this. not like i particularly want you to see it. gahh. i'm going in circles again.

i just watched inside i'm dancing. its a lovely movie. really sad and touching. had me bawling like an idiot -.- the way i act is like the As are over. but anyway, coupled with what happened above, it just makes me want to cherish my friends even more. at the end of the day. i still go back to my comfort zone. its a place with memories and people that no one can take away. and the people there won't ever leave. even if one day we'll physically be apart (which is rather soon), it'll always be there (:

and i'm terribly sorry if i'm morbidly depressing. its an accumulation of a few months of angst.

: every breath you take :: the police :